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Academic article on the issue that concludes ssris can cause permanent sexual dysfunction:

This study shows the true prevalence of sexual side effects associated with antidepressants :

An article about informed consent and sexual dysfunction:

Prevalence of Antidepressant-Associated erectile dysfunction:

Prozac information 2013: Page 15, line 26, “Symptoms of sexual dysfunction occasionally persist after discontinuation of fluoextine treatment“. Page 19, line 35 “testicular degeneration and necrosis“, “hypospermia” and page 19, line 45 “drug effects on reproductive organs are irreversible.”:

Lilly update this document, so the position of the info may move.

A psychology paper on the issue :

Genital numbness persisting after discontinuation of ssris :

Case studies:

This article describes how SSRIs, probably the class of drugs most prescribed to treat depression and anxiety are also given to pedophiles and deviants:

Persistent sexual dysfunction in genitourinary medicine clinic attendees induced by selective serotonin reuptake inhibitors :

Psychiatric treatment with ssris, etc. for sex offenders:

An account from a reputable medical doctor of the permanent damage done by ssris to sexual function :

Sex offenders in Germany given ssris to lower testosterone and affect sexual functioning :

Korean article about using ssris to lower testosterone in sex offenders and stop reoffending:

Passage that describes how ssris are used to lower testosterone in sex offenders:

Antidepressants, Testosterone:

SSRIs and the hpt axis:

Report your experience here:

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Don’t believe me, visit the links:

This article describes how SSRIs, probably the class of drugs most prescribed to treat depression and anxiety are also given to pedophiles and deviants. The given reason for the medicating of these freaks is that it affects their way of thinking and therefore decreases their likelihood of reoffending. Anyone who has experienced ssris or other psychotropics will tell you that the given reason probably isn’t the only reason. They are given these drugs because of how it will affect their sexual functioning; I have no problem with this but people who aren’t in the above categories, such as innocent, decent and naive people, who are suffering from mental illness, should not be taking these drugs; or they should be, at least properly informed of the true extent of the side effects of psychotropics:

Are you depressed and/or anxious? Do you feel alone? Well if you are don’t worry, your troubles are over because the intellectual whores that are doctors, psychiatrists and folks working in the pharma industry have the solution. Inducing permanent sexual dysfunction and a whole host of other permanent side effects by taking psychotropic medication. Welcome to hell.



If the amount of people reading this blog continues at the paltry rate it’s at now, even at that rate, inevitably someone is going to point out that a lot of my side effects are symptoms of depression. This is not the case as none of the side effects were present before taking antidepressants. I also must reiterate that I have a healthy lifestyle, no underlying medical condition and that ALL THESE COMPLAINTS ONLY APPEARED WHILE ON ANTIDEPRESSANTS.

The following is a list of the side effects:

  • stomach ache
  • diarrhea
  • significantly disturbed sleep pattern – PERSISTING
  • feeling weak and easily fatigued
  • erectile dysfunction – PERSISTING
  • paranoia
  • irritability
  • anger
  • emotional numbness – PERSISTING
  • negative effect on hand to eye co-ordination and fine motor movement
  • weight loss
  • poor concentration – PERSISTING

So if you are thinking of taking or have just begun to take antidepressants or any other psychotropic med, I promise you, there will be pain and you will regret taking it for the rest of your life.

The end of the world, the only way out


I have heard it said that around the time of the end of the world or apocalypse, whether it be natural or supernatural, that the living will envy the dead because of the suffering they will experience. As I write this, there is no type of apocalypse happening on planet earth but it is the end of the world for me and undoubtedly for many more around the world suffering in many different ways.

This is where taking antidepressants has brought me to. I feel that when I took those medications I was preyed upon and I realize now that people prey on people all the time, everywhere. Of course that is obvious but sometimes it can be hard to realize and accept, especially in a well off country where usually people don’t get a serious dose of reality and judgement can be clouded by media, culture, art, etc.
I have been off the medication for almost 4 years and I have not improved. Aside from chronic sexual dysfunction I also have severely disrupted sleep patterns, unable to sleep for more than 3 hours at a time, difficulty concentrating, learning anything new and memorizing. I was duped into paying money for pills because I was unhappy and insecure. I was trying to buy happiness. I could not help it, it was my upbringing and life to that point that steered me to the evil clutch of psychiatry and the pharmaceutical industry.
I felt angry and still do about what has happened. I feel despairing and suicidal, especially since the start of 2012. I thought I wasn’t serious about the suicide, until a few months ago I realized something.
I realize now that I envy the dead and bizzarely I envy the dead who had ‘better’ predators than me. Let me explain what I mean by ‘better’. The pills I took have destroyed my life but I am still alive. If they had killed me, I wouldn’t be in the living hell I’m now in. I am however still alive and faced with two choices, continue on living my miserable, shameful life as a going nowhere semi-castrate, semi-lobotomized freak for decades to come or kill myself.
This is why I now envy dead people and even some people who were murdered because when they were preyed upon, that was it and they weren’t left to hang around and choose between having a terrible quality of life or commit suicide. An example of what I mean was recently I was watching a fictional tv show. It was a crime drama in an urban setting. In one scene a hitman murdered two people by shooting them. It was something to do with the drug trade. The hitman obviously was the predator and the victims the prey. The hitman killed the people for money to survive just like animals hunt other animals to survive. I envied the murdered people because it was all over in a flash for them. They had a better predator than me, by better I don’t mean nicer or anything like that but they died easier than I will. Even though the example is fictional, obviously there are countless real examples, I just can’t think of any off the top of my head.
I now truly envy the dead, it is the end of the world for me. I cannot and will not live on like this.

Anxiety and depression vs insecure and dull‏

“Do I have anxiety?”, “Do I have depression?”. These questions are being asked by people more often in the present day than they were in times past. If you type these questions into a search engine you will undoubtedly get a lot of directly related results. You will come across them in magazines, hear them on television as well as radio. From my point of view it usually seems that these questions, or any similar and related ones are asked by a younger generation.
The reason for this is because society has been lead to accept as truth that ‘mental illness is an illness like any other’. So now people are asking do they have conditions such as ‘anxiety’ and ‘depression’ and talking  about these states like they are something separate from themselves and their personality, like a virus or physical disease, say for example, Crohns disease or flu. This is a very controversial topic and a lot of people vehemently deny that what we call ‘mental illness’ is an illness like any other.I do believe that for some people there is perhaps a physical cause in the brain and/or body for ‘mental illness’ but I believe for most that it is down to experience and can be dealt with without medication. I believe this despite my horrendous experience with antidepressants, doctors and psychiatrists. However I also believe that there is an over diagnosis of these conditions around the world and that in the case of diagnosis the available treatment could be better.One demographic in my opinion, from my observation that is a huge market for antidepressants is young men in the developed world. Life has certainly gotten easier for this group over the generations but it has changed a lot too. There are pressures on young men. Pressure to do well at education, get a good career, etc, etc. So, take a young man in this position, stressed out, factor in being single, celibate and the insecurity of youth and you have a prime target to get hooked on antidepressants.
In fact if this sounds like you, or you are a type of person who is likely to be prescribed medication, this is what you and others are described as by drug companies and there advertising and marketing people.
You are the target demographic, you are a target. This term sounds harmless when talking about selling other products such as cars, after all people want and need cars. When talking about selling defective, addictive products to weak, vulnerable people it  takes on a different meaning and gives a different feeling. You realize the target demographic are prey.
A vulnerable person will visit his doctor and/or psychiatrist and be told they are anxious and depressed, that they have a chemical imbalance but it can be treated with medication. That’s how it begins and gets worse from there. Any complaints of side effects are brushed away and dismissed as signs of the ‘illness’. People end up staying on antidepressants for years  believing that it is fine to do this. As someone who has experienced the horrors of antidepressants I could not recommend them and certainly not as a type of maintenance medication.
When the typical young man who goes to the health care professionals initially meets them, that meeting will usually be only a few minutes and will always end with a prescription. The doctor or whoever won’t ask about diet or lifestyle, if this sounds wrong I can guarantee you most people on meds can describe the same experience.
So being overweight, sedentary, not making efforts to socialize, exercise and in general not challenging yourself mentally and physically has no bearing on how you’re feeling. Well obviously, I’m sorry, it does. This is my opinion, that a large proportion of people on antidepressants live unhealthily in all aspects. It’s so obvious to see this, for example the U.S. a country with a massive proportion of obese people also has masses on antidepressants. Coincidence, I think not.These people as I said before are prime targets for the drug companies, especially the young men. They become convinced that they cannot change because they have separated themselves from their feelings and have been led to believe they have a condition. They won’t make any effort to change because it’s like they’ve been hypnotized, they just accept it. They are told what they want to hear and that there is a solution in the form of a pill. They have anxiety and depression but actually they don’t they’re just dulled from modern life and insecure and it’s kind of ran out of control. These people don’t need medication they need guidance and someone to advise them and listen to them.

Excuses / FAQ‏



The thing about post ssri sexual dysfunction or any kind of sexual dysfunction caused by antidepressants is that these conditions can be and usually are dismissed as being caused by something else.

This is usually the stance healthcare professionals e.g. doctors and psychiatrists take. Below is a list of what I imagine would be some common questions these people would ask sufferers of antidepressant induced sexual dysfunction.

I will answer these questions as best I can and there will be what I feel would be some common questions other sufferers would ask. This post will be subject to updating and editing.

Q. How do you know that your sexual dysfunction is not caused by another underlying physical condition?

A. I have been to my doctor had myself checked out. Everything else is fine, working as it should be and I have no other symptoms. This is what it’s been like despite being drug free for 3 years and 2 months.
Q. Do you think your condition could be all in your mind? Maybe your knowledge that the medication you took causes sexual dysfunction has convinced you that now you are sexually dysfunctional?
A. I don’t think so, up until I was 20 no matter how stressed I was, this never happened.
I started taking this medication at 20. Until I was 18 I smoked lightly from my mid-teens. In this country there are health warnings on cigarette packs informing that the product causes impotence but these warnings never induced me into some sort of delusion where I thought I was impotent.
Likewise I also drank moderately up until I was 20. I still do. I knew then that alcohol can cause erectile problems but never had any problems resulting from this knowledge or alcohol itself.
Another reason I have for thinking that the medications caused this problem is NPT. NPT stands for nocturnal penile tumescence. This is the term used to describe when a man gets an erection during sleep and/or has one on waking. Up until I was 20 I always experienced this. After taking ssris and snris this gradually reduced to the point where it rarely happens anymore. Elderly men still experience NPT. It is true that stress and anxiety can affect NPT  but I have been much more anxious in the past and it always occurred then.
As well as diminished NPT I have severely diminished semen volume. This appeared while taking antidepressants and has not reversed despite being drug free. I now ejaculate less than when I was 15.
Q. Maybe your condition is caused by another substance or your lifestyle?

A. Nope. I am well above average fitness, do not take any drug, legal or illegal. I don’t smoke, I rarely drink and when I do it’s a small amount.
Q. Why don’t you get something like viagra from your doctor?

A.  Viagra has side effects too and who knows if these too could be horrendous long term effects. Viagra really only works in the context of a relationship and is usually prescribed to middle aged or elderly men.
Q. Maybe depression or anxiety caused this condition?
A. This is a common theory regarding this problem but I never experienced anything like this in the years before taking medication, no matter how unhappy or worried I was. I have read accounts of others and they say the exact same.
Q. What does the future hold?
A. The future is nothing for me. This is hell on earth. I do not live the way other people live and my life, future and all my hopes and dreams are destroyed forever. Because of this condition I will never have an intimate relationship again and therefore I
will never have a family. There is no purpose to my life and nothing to motivate me. As I write this on the 8th of April 2013 I am still suffering despite being off the medication for almost 4 years. I have given a lot of effort and time to try and resolve this problem but now given there hasn’t been the slightest improvement I am finished. I am absolutely beat to the ropes and only see one way out.
Q. There’s no way that psychotropic or any other legal medication could cause this condition?
A. Psychotropic medication is well documented and proven to cause sexual dysfunction. Manufacturers downplay the extent of the problem, as do healthcare professionals; especially psychiatrists.
Conversely these same groups will prescribe and/or recommend a course of ssris for the treatment of premature ejaculation as well as using them systematically over longer periods of time to kill the sex drive of sexual deviants. Patients that are not sexual deviants and not looking to desensitize their sexual function but are prescribed psychotropic medications like ssris for mental problems are not told this. There is no informed consent for decent people who are taking psychotropics for mental illness.
Finasteride or propecia was a medication taken by people for hair loss.
It was effective for some but a disaster for others. It played havoc with the normal chemistry of peoples bodies who were taking it and some people developed permanent sexual dysfunction from taking it as well as other terrible side effects. Investigations were done and finasteride was to blame and now carries a warning that permanent sexual dysfunction can be a side effect. So it can and has happened.